“Take
kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.”
Desiderata
Max Ehrmann
I’m one of
the “at risk,” “vulnerables.” I don’t add “elderly.” It’s enough that word even
exists as it evokes images of wizened, warty, bent-backed beings with white
hair or no hair, and perhaps two remaining teeth. People only look like that in
a Dickens novel. I’m also one of the people some want to sacrifice in order to rescue the economy. I do not comment on those individuals as that would be like trying to
have a dialogue with fudge. The stereotype of women in my age group surrounded
by doilies and teacups, little ‘ole ladies wearing little ‘ole lady dresses,
the inevitable afghan circling their tiny shoulders doesn’t quite work for me.
I’m wearing a hot pink top and tight jeans as I write this. Many in the media
often refer to seniors so patronizingly, I consider getting the news by
accessing a Ouija board. What is it about some young’uns that makes them relate
to older folk as if we have the I.Q. of a tangerine?
In spite of
the above, there are some very positive things about being older. The first and
greatest advantage is that you can finally do what you always wanted to do - full
time. If you are fortunate enough to have spent your life doing what you love,
just be quiet (surrendering envy is one of the things I’m still working on). Whether
it’s reading those forty-seven books you ordered from Amazon, gardening,
learning a language, painting a room or a canvas, writing a memoir, getting
involved in local politics, enjoying every play, opera, ballet, or concert in
the history of the world, the choices are there.
Another remarkable
gift of aging is the joy of forgiving those who were absolutely shitty to you
because, you know what, it really doesn’t matter anymore. You can also, I add
with a hint of caution, have wine and cookies for supper. Of course, a definite
downside to seniorhood is that when you go to bed at night you can’t help
wondering if you’ll wake up the following morning. When you do, the scrambled
eggs taste so awfully good and your dog peeing on the brand new sofa (he’s a
senior too) seems almost amusing. Almost.
My mother
told me I “think too much.” A teacher I had said I was “too intellectual” – a
singularly peculiar remark to make to a student. When a friend referred to me
as “a giant brain,” I imagined aliens disembarking their spacecraft. They
all had shockingly oversized heads. I was one of them! I assure you that I am
not a giant brain. I could not define a scalene triangle if the Lord himself appeared
and asked me to. My normal size brain loves reading giant souls like
Shakespeare, Dostoevsky, and Dickens. I'm spending my retirement rereading books I love and finding new books to love.
I confess
I’ve let go of some of “the things of youth” reluctantly, without an ounce of
grace, and I’m holding on to others like a toddler with a teddy bear. I miss
being pretty (I haven’t surrendered vanity). I didn’t even know I was pretty
till I opened a photo album and saw this attractive young woman who used to be
me. I knew I’d turned a corner when people started calling me "ma’am" and
asking if I’d like the senior discount. And I miss planning for the future. At
my age, I am the future.
I’m going to
end this blog post now as I’m rather pleased with it. Oops, apparently, I
haven’t relinquished pride yet either. Oh well, there’s always tomorrow. One
hopes.
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At 67, I can relate to nearly all this, Barbara 🙄 A thoughtful and particularly well written post. Thanks...I feel better!
ReplyDeleteInge, Thanks so much for your comment. I appreciate it.
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